Just felt like putting the title that. :P Anywho <-- (that word is becoming an addiction)...

How's life everyone? It's what I always say whenever I'm not sure how to open up a conversation. Lame, or what? I'm not REALLY anti-social, it's just that I'm not really good at starting the talking. -sigh- yeah.

Lainee and Anna got promoted as MC! And especially Lemon, I've been waiting for her promo for AGES, she really needed one. ^_^ I'm glad the two blue fruits got that promotion. :) What else...

Who wants to hear about my boring life? *no one raises hands*

Fine, I'll talk to myself. :P

Last two weeks = disaster. Absolute disaster and stress. There's an old friend (from my last school) that I have, who felt suicidal and was talking about suicide and cutting when we were IMing each other, so I told my English teacher my worries the next day. Then she told my Social Studies teacher, who told my math teacher. Together, they stalked me everywhere until they cornered me and took my out of art, asking if I wanted to go to guidance. I said "I didn't really think she was serious..." but they make me go anyway. Then I tell the guidance counsler everything, who then proceeds to call the guidance counsler at my old school, who then calls my suicidal-ish feeling friend out of class and says "I got a letter from a student saying you wanted to commit suicide." (she'd have been like wtf!?).

AND THEN....

Because of that, I fail my math test, therefore lowering my average from a 94 to an 82, putting me in a dangerous position of getting kicked out of AP math. And then I totally bombed my Earth Science test, which I'm already in the danger of getting kicked out, since I don't have a B or above average (I believe I have something like a C or a C+, which horrifies me). And now, my grades have dropped, I'm getting less sleep, and I have to deal with tons of stress.

BUT I'M NOT DONE!

I got aim just two days ago (screename: snitchywitch33). And no, that screename doesn't really relate to my everyday personality. Anywho, I've been using only Yahoo Messenger before. As soon as I got it, I added my suicidal friend to my buddy list, and literally three seconds later, this random person (who isn't in my buddy list, so we talked "offline") IMed me, talking about God's honour, or something like that. Then he started to attack me with the question, "Did you fucking tell anyone about abby?" and I was like, "Holy shit, who are you?"

And it went on, back and forth, and it sorted of ended with him threatening with "keylogging me" (a tracking system that tracks the victim's keyboard movement) and then later confessing who he was, which really surprised me, because I knew him before I moved from my old school, and he really had no close relationship/friendship with my suicidal friend. How did he suddenly know about Abby's problem?

THE QUESTION IS ANSWERED!

Just yesterday I believe, I was doing my Earth Science hw and feeling smart, when suddenly the same guy IM's me. And I was really pissed by then. I didn't want to talk to him, why was he fucking annoying me? And then he admitted that he never keylogged me, and that the whole thing was planned out...with my suicidal friend.

I was soooooooo shocked. and betrayed. and totally sad. She ranted on about "the person" who told on her, the person that wouldn't be her friend anymore if she found out who it was, how she felt totally betrayed, and now I felt horrible. And BETRAYED. Backstabbed. The worst feeling possible. I did the telling out of concern and care, she did the plan out of SPITE and the determination to find out who it was (suspecting me secretly but too afraid to ask). Yes, and I finally knew the real purpose of her rantings: to make me feel guilty, therefore causing me to confess. How ironic.

I confessed and yelled about my feelings, and then she had the nerve to tell me that she was just feeling "messed up" that one night, and that she really wasn't suicidal! The whole thing ended up with her apologizing to me because she realized that I wasn't in any way trying to punish her or make her feel angry and bad. She tried to make it up by asking if she could make COOKIES. And then I just logged off.

After, I felt confused. Who did the right thing? Was it right of me at all to have taken her seriously in the first place? She really was a good friend...and I really didn't mean to just LOG off like that. But really...making it up with cookies? Telling me she was just feeling "messed up." Well, I hope she realized what that "messed up" rant caused: nothing but trouble, bad grades, and a broken friendship.

`grace.

So woot, promotions done at TDA! I quite glad for some of the people that got promoted, they really absolutely deserved it. Of course--I've stopped being surprised--I didn't get promoted, which for somewhat reason doesn't make me sad. It's really weird, I thought that if I didn't get promoted this month, I would be disappointed, but I'm not. But I couldn't possibly have expected one with the amount of things in my gallery that are pure OLD stuff. So yes, I'm not. I actually KNOW what I'm doing wrong. And as I said to Erin, I chose the totally wrong time to wake up and get back on my feet.

Anywho, I hope Kay and Susan doesn't think I'm ripping them off with my PDG's Artist Roll Call thing, because that's like totally not the case. I just feel some of these PDG-er's just don't deserve to have a rank and be inactive. I'm worried that Tiff might want to give up on the site because the site isn't as active as TDA or RCR or PC or even CS, who I believe just reached their thousand milestone. We're like on 226, which I'm trying to get myself to believe that's a lot for a site creeping towards inactivity.

And finally, I'm just really excited about...the thing. Just in case the persons happen to look at this entry, I'm not going to say, but yeah, I think they deserve it. :) Such nice peope. ^_^

`grace.

Of course, which is not possible. But I'm trying to fix my last entry. I went a bit overboard, you could say I wa pretty angry. With people like that all over the place in my head...well, I have a pretty heavy temper.

As I can't be multi-talented like Susan (Violet @ TDA), I'm giving up writing for awhile and try to work on my graphics--which to say, has not been easy. I'm trying to get myself going. December seems to be my month. After a whole year of working and improving, maybe it'll all pay off. There's been a lot of signs, people speaking up about it, something no one's really done before. Maye it means that I've really improved a lot without me noticing. Which is sort of weird, but yeah. I have urges to make a banner, but hw comes first. Perhaps if I finish extra early...the inspiration is coming. ^_^

`grace.

Woot! I'm feeling mucho good. Not ONLY does the Mets like, totally kicked Marlin butt, but the Yankees had a VERY satisfying (and I do mean VERY) satisfying win. Yesterday, the game stayed tied 4-4 ALL THE WAY to the 14th inning. Ya guys heard me right. The 14th inning! And they lost just because their stupid pitcher let out a homerun to the opposite team (the toronto blue jays). But today...well, it was tied again 11-11, and it went all the way to the -thinks- um, I think it was the tenth or eleventh, bottom of the inning anyway.

CABRERA, WE LOVE YOU! <3 he really is love, base hit RIGHT at the RIGHT moment!!! :D ^_^ He is like, totally awesome. :P Okay, I'm REALLY starting to sound like a Yankees fan, but I'm not. I'm just saying, if you're watching a game that has neither of your fav team, you have to pick one team that you want to win, otherwise, watching the game isn't really that much fun. And of course (duh!) even though I'm not a Yanks fan, I still want them to win. Hel-lo! They're New York baby! ^_^

SOOO...he hit the winning hit, and GUESS WHAT!? Well, you should have guessed it by now. :D Yankees won 12-11. Oh sexy Cabrera... :D

Anyhoo, just joined leakylounge.com for like, the awesome, hot smileys. :P

Later! ^_^

grace

I feel like the biggest loser in the world today.
Mind if I vent out my feelings.

God, school is a killer. I forgot how hard and rough school can be while I was missing it during the summer. Now it's already the second day and I have homework! Piles you can even say, and we have two tests next week: Spanish and Math.

I really can't digest how much eighth grade differs from seventh. I know, I'm such a loser, stuttering about how hard eighth grade is. I'm sure there are you guys out there, suffering piles of hw perhaps in High School. I know someone personally who got a pile of homework on the first day of school at (excuse my spelling) Shriber, my district school. It's really sad actually.

Anyway, I really need to figure out how I'm going to get through eighth grade this year. There's a lot to worry about suddenly. For example, I'm in all the AP classes for my grade that the school provides: Earth Science and Accelerated Math 8, in other words: intergrated math 1A. Both High school coarses, the Earth Science counting big, since I have to take the Regents this year that'll count! And I'm supposed to be in the middle of doing it.

So, a little about Earth Science: It's a rather interesting subject, but the teacher bores me. Mr. Herman, as he's called, is actually not even our teacher. He's a replacement for our real teacher, Mrs. Libierman, until she comes back from having her baby. That'll be till Christmas time. Reckon I can last that long? Hope I can anyway...SO, I'm supposed to be doing homework about footprints. Excuse me, but how are we supposed to answer: Is the land level or irregular? with just looking at a flat piece of paper with footprints!? You can say i'm confused with questions also, like: Were the sediments coarse or fine where the tracks were made OR In what kind of rock were the prints made?

And then comes math. I guess it isn't as stressful as Earth Science. I'm pretty happy about everything when it comes to math: the subject, the teacher, and the way the class is taught. His name is Mr. Spotteck, and he has a really nice voice, speaks well, has a very happy and positive and firm air around him that can't be broken. He teaches the class with that voice so gladly that we're all actually eager to go to math this year. I mean, I even heard one girl (who I know is the type who'd do anything to skip math) say to another hooky friend that she wanted to go to math when her friend suggested going to the nurse with her. He's that great. I hope he doesn't turn out boring. I don't think he will. :D I think he's very influencial.

I'm also VERY happy about our Social Studies and English teacher. Mr. Hollis (S.S) is a funny guy who we know from last year (he visited our old English teacher Mr. Joseph all the time) and Ms. Fish (Englis) is--as Mr. Hollis puts it-- "The sweetest woman you'd ever meet". And he found the word that I was looking for: she was sweet. She's so kind, her air is honey and one taste of it will get you hyper. She's just so strong when she looks small and petite. She's not small and petite inside. She speaks with awesome and great confidence. I'm so glad to have her this year.

As for everything else...Spanish--god save me--I'll FAIL this year. Ms. Berlin is the worst Spanish teacher I've had yet. Not only can't she speak English properly (not making fun of her exactly, I mean it'll be a great disadvantage for us when we take our Proficinecys) but she won't let us speak ANY English! Just a few. I mean, it's like she wants us to remember everything after we emptyed our brains in the summer! Can you believe it? I sure can't! And the damn test....I feel very, very annoyed. At least it won't count, right? She said she won't and I hope she's telling the truth!

I'm tryin to think of all I can. Let's see...oh, I won't rant too much about Computers. It's not worth my time. I may like computers, but not the school way, and definitely not the teacher. :P she's a bore, Mrs. Madonia is. I try to understand her, but I can't. She isn't understandable.

Well, the one thing I'm really excited about is gym/PhysEd, you can say. I've suddenly been into it since last year. I used to think from my younger years "it was the funnest subject than everything else". Then around the beginning of Seventh grade, I thought nothing about it. AND THEN...somewhere right before Spring, I thought this a very exceptional class. don't.ask.me.why.

I dunno why...but I now like it, and I have it tomorrow! Yipee? Yipeeee!!!

And there isn't much left to talk about when it comes to my other subjects: there's Band, Famly and consumer Sciences, and lunch. :P We get to cook this year at Family and Consumer Sciences!! We'll be cooking lots of things, like cupcakes, apple crisps, waffles, ice cream, pizza, and toad in the hole.

:D :D :D

Let me savor some happiness...I want to push away my troubles. But I know somewhere secretly inside that I can't. But I hope and pray that I can get through this crucial and last year at Junior High. I'll be graduating at the end of this year. To high school! Sort of unbelieveable. Very. I've never graduated before. i know elementry kids graduated from fifth to Junior High, but I've went to a very different school before this. I've never had the chance.

Reckon it'll be cool? At least we'll have a graduation party. :P

I'll sigh off with this. Seriously, what's with the long entry and everything today about school?

I can't decide what to do. :D Finally, I've a layout! I'll be putting some things up maybe. UFG's maybe? I've got tons. :D